Oh Jesus. It is so easy to get caught up in this world of having to prove myself. I do it subconsciously and often don’t even recognize it. Today’s scripture took me away into teaching moments, but you only wanted me to spend some time with you. Several hours later I felt it perfected, thought about posting what I wrote in several spots – well, you know what happen. You stopped me. I was listening and paused. Then you helped me to see that once again, I didn’t talk to you but to an audience.
Yes I want to bring others to you. I seem to do this in many ways. But I also know I just need to sit with you and a few words. The other I know is great too, but if and when time allows. So now I think about the power you gave to Philip, to Peter and John. You give to us all; some more than others. We have the freedom to say yes or no. To turn to you or away from you. I think, how can my prayer be different every day when I say the same thing? I love you, I desire you in my soul, I embrace you and offer myself to you in a spiritual communion. I have your power in me. You fill me with joy, just like the Psalm. And I do have a message to share. Mercy! You give me so much Jesus. You help me to see my failures as a way to grow in union with you. You love me so much; unconditionally. You went to that cross for me, laid yourself down and let them nail you to it. Because you wanted me to be able to be in you and in the Father.
Help me to see the commandments as my boundaries, as places of caution to not proceed further but to back up and evaluate what brought me to the edge. Help me to discern every day who is talking to me and what is being said – if it is bringing me to or away from you. Thank you for opening my eyes this afternoon and stop me before I went too far – once again. Your love always pushes me forward. That is where I want to be – closer and closer to you.