Today was a first Saturday – in the month of the Sacred Heart. How beautiful yet sad that I did not get to be with you in Holy Mass this morning. I still have those selfish tendencies Lord to not be inconvenienced and drive 30 miles to be with you. I also had both AV teaching and my Discernment of Spirits class with Fr. Gallagher plus the parish work. So I did manage to justify not going. But it still made my heart sad, which means yours must be too. I’m sorry Jesus.
In today’s letter from St. Paul to Timothy (4:1-8) he talked about being persistent in spreading the word of God and to use the work he did for you as a model of how to do my own evangelizing. Wow. How do I do this when I’m not even sharing these blog posts with anyone? People are following their own desires – making up their own rules – being intolerant, unruly, unfair, demoralizing and disrespectful of anyone who has a different opinion than their own. They just want what they want and want it now. I know this conversation with you is not about them – but you know Lord how it riles me up. If we just put this much energy into loving you and our neighbor we wouldn’t be in this mess!
Then the gospel (Mark 12:38-44) – okay Lord yes! I have been procrastinating! I finally set things up properly with sharing what I have with others. And yes, it feels right. It feels blessed. It will come back to me in ways you will surprise me with. Thank you for this prompting. Thank you for the many ways in which you speak to me throughout my day – helping me to choose words that are kind and loving not anxious, judging or critical. Help me to keep my mouth closed more so I can listen and learn. I am so blessed to have the time to spend with you in prayer, reflection and then be able to share my thoughts. I will keep my eyes on you, my beloved. Show me the path to your Father, to salvation – for all those I love. Help me to be the conduit of your grace for another. I love you.