Serving the Lord

As for me and my house, we will follow the Lord. Elijah said to the people, if the Lord is God, follow Him. When you call upon Him, He will answer you. Kings 18:20-39

Once again – I see trust. In today’s scripture, Elijah (Kings 18:20-39) was facing a large crowd of people who were not happy. He faced their false gods who seemed easy to call upon whereas the Lord God was silent.

Ahhh far too often I too call upon false gods of vanity, pride, selfishness and narcissism. My ego needs to know… will I appear false, pious, pretty, helpful, overbearing, anxious, troubled, truthful, understanding, impatient, judgemental, kind or critical? How do I look and sound; how did I act, did I stand out, should I have been quiet/louder?

How do I know Lord who the real me is? How do I know when I am following you in the way I should, or could, or would if I knew the way? I have a friend who seems so close to you. Do I even have envy for what appears to be her deep love for you because her actions are so extremely beautiful? Would it take the type of fire you sent down to the altar Elijah built so I would know how much you love and want me with you in eternity? I don’t need to be like her for you to love me as I am. I know this. But the enemy is strong with his lies.

Then you lead me to this psalm – 16 – Keep me safe, O God; you are my hope. I do have hope. I have hope that what I am doing to fill my day – which brings me joy – is solid in you. I hope that I will not, nor my family, fall ill from the present day dangers of virus, violence, rioting and selfishness. We have huge separations in thought, morals, outrage; self preservation seems to be the leading contingent in how to live life. You said those that lead others or cause others to break a commandment will be called least in the Kingdom of God. But those who obey and teach will be called greatest. No one wants to be least. It is why this world is in such turmoil. They are striving to be heard, recognized by each other – and that is where the problem lies. It is you they should be turning to. My sinful nature already wants me to be more, yet it is my heart that rests in You that desires to be greater. For great is your love for me; I want to give to you all in which you have graced me with…. for I am nothing without you. Everything I have is from you and so I want to give it back with a joyful heart either in praise or worship or to another who seeks you.

So yes, Lord I want and will follow you. Even when times are tough and I look around and see no one standing with me. They will follow you too because I pray for them and you hear my prayers. Turn their stony hearts into wax that will melt into yours, then your Your grace upon them. They too want to love and be loved. We are such a hurt and broken people.

Have mercy my Lord, have mercy. We need your mercy. Mary, Mother of Mercy Incarnate, pray for us.

Prayer 610

About Cathy Trowbridge

A faith-led people-person, daughter, sister, mother, grandmother, great- grandmother and friend, I am a Catholic Christian striving to union with our Lord. I hope to bring you encouragement to live a closer relationship with Christ, discerning direction in the path to Him, with Him and in Him.
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