Matthew 6: 7-15 7 “When you are praying, do not heap up empty phrases as the Gentiles do; for they think that they will be heard because of their many words. 8 Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him. Pray then in this way: Our Father….
Can I just stop here Lord? Today I want to touch your cloak. I want my hand near yours. I want to smell you, hear your breath, feel your closeness. You are my Father. Our Father. Protector, creator, all in all. You direct my every movement, yet I still act as if I am leading you. I think I am to start reading / praying again, but I’m not moving forward. In truth you know I could just stay for hours with those two words. So much to ponder on. Our Father. I feel you want me just right here. Thank you for the permission and peace to know I don’t have to go further because you know where I need to be. Your grace brought me here. And it’s okay to not move on.
Those words cannot leave my mind nor heart. I think of St. Paul’s commonly known statement “your grace is sufficient for me.” It’s gentle reminder gives me patient endurance to recognize and be humbled that I am not God when I think I am. I’m just me. I’m not putting me down, because ME is someone you created, you brought to this place and time with the knowledge to know that I am loved by you, carried here to do the things I am doing. Yet I find it hard to wrap my head around not being in charge. As a “type A” person, I need to be on the top of things. Let me only be on top of loving you Lord, resigning myself to the simplicity of being a child again, with the openness of Our Father who has the very best planned for me.
I know you cannot do anything but good. I’ve seen and experienced your watching me and you’ve seen me with having a hardened heart. But you also molded it and gave me a lesson for my greater good. Help me dear Father, to endure the trials of this world with my eyes on you. May the faith you have placed in me persist until my last breath. Remain in me Lord. Your grace is surely sufficient for me.